I started this blog a couple of years ago without really knowing why. All I knew was that I wanted to continue writing and I hoped for this blog to be an outlet that would help me stretch and strengthen those creative muscles, whether it was through writing, photography, or other forms of creative expression that I hold dear. However, I’ve pushed aside those outlets and have felt lost trying to regroup and reconnect with my creative self.
Something I didn’t and haven’t focused enough on is my own voice as a blogger. I’m an avid reader of typical lifestyle, food, and/or photography based blogs, so when I started – or rather created – this blog I imagined it would look and feel just like those blogs because I admired them and wanted to emulate them. However, I’m not blogger A, B, or C, and I’ve come to realize I can’t blog exactly how they do because I’m simply a different person with different strengths, passions, and outlooks.
I majored in English in college and have an extensive background in literary theory and music criticism, but I haven’t written about either of those topics since graduating two years ago. Do I want to begin writing theory and criticism again? I think so. But I also want to write about my daily musings, just as I’m doing at this very moment, as well as my cooking experiments and everyday life. Why haven’t I done that more regularly? I’ve made excuses out of fear – fear of failing, fear of not being good enough – as well as out of lack of discipline. A huge part of writing is just having the discipline to sit down and do it, and that’s something I’m working on.
This blog is still a work in progress and I’m finding my voice and point of view as a blogger. But I can’t discover my voice without first using it, which is why I’ve got a couple of goals for the month: 1) write for 20 minutes a day and 2) post at least 1 blog post a week. I know it doesn’t seem like much, but I have to start somewhere.
I look forward to seeing how this blog evolves as I set forth on my goals. I do feel a little like I’m starting all over but I don’t feel self-conscious anymore. This is actually the most excited I’ve felt in a while. I think I might even start creative writing again…